after the hurricane

After all is said & done, where do go from your current stand point? When the damage is done ; its pretty damn hard to fix all the damages & heal all wounds all on your own. Misconception, mistrust, deceit and a lack of communication just caused a hurricane. Now your fucked. You can try, try & fix it if you please. One body, one mind & one soul thats gonna be the hardest task yet to face. Even after the storm, your home is where your heart is. When everything left , your heart left with it because it knows nothing else. That right there, not every one can understand. Emotions play a part beyond what the mind can explain. How we deal with how you feel, is the real brain teaser...

Fear- a set back from the land of opportunity. & Pride ; its number one follower. My best friend said prides a bitch and she sets you back this girl couldnt have been more right. Your ego can be your worst enemy & behind it lies nothing but deception. Pride always gives you sense of stability and protection. Its the greatest excuse to not be in touch with how you really feel. At the moment it feels right; but then your minds left wandering the answers to what could of been. Thats when youre left with nothing but the thought of what could be because Fear took over, and that bitch Pride followed. Sometimes allowing yourself vulnerability leads to happiness.. true sometimes you end up upset or hurt. But that allows closure - your no longer killing your thoughts with just wonder- now everythings factual.

" Shit , be like that sometimes ; & When it does - just let it be
... Move on; or Fix it."

by any means.

why are people so dependent on others? you came in this world alone, and when you die your going to be alone. The next person can only do so much for you until you have to do for yourself. Do for yourself by any means. Your bestfriend can only do but so much, Your boyfriend/girlfriend can only do but so much, Your family can only do but so much. Its the 21st century, i wish people would stop doubting there capabilities. Get it by any means, Succeed by any means , provide by means. Men are the new Women. We are the new man lets get it together. Stop crying and fix what needs to be fixed. Everyday we grow as people. Expeirence equals growth. Its the greatest gift given so how about we use it sitting on your ass only gets you so far.

lalala.

not to many thoughts today. i'm just living, all smiles for the time being. A little sick of the fraudulent people, & mediocrity.but ehh, life goes on.

byeeee

burnt my heart to stone.

How much do you have to give until the other person actually gets it ? It kinda sucks to be stuck in a field of fade away memories & what could be's. Would it be a waste to hold on ? Even when you know your place ? Imagine if one day its everything you ever wanted and then next thing you know everythings different. Now your sitting there contemplating your emotions wondering where do i go from here? Should i still care or act like they never exisisted? Denial doesnt work ; ive tried it & i probably know a little to well. People will be people & i've learned, if they cant see the greater good in you. All you really can do is say "So what now what?" You either bury shit, or make it work.

hello there :)

lalala. i think i like this already. i enjoy writing & i like for people to get a feel of how i go about things. Normally i write on paper or in my phone. Alot of people i know & love have a blogspot and they seem to love it so i figure why not give it a try. I'll most likely write about whats going on in my life and how im feeling at the moment. You'll be interested i promise.

byeeeee.